Joecities

Spent a big part of my day today watching the progress indicator on my office PC. For reasons which I shall not delve into here, I can't shut down my computer. So it's got 2 days worth of temp files built up. Snails are jogging faster than my computer is running at the moment.

So I do the next best thing - I blog.

Maybe it's because I had some time to think today, but I suddenly get the feeling like I'm being 'pushed'. Not physically hurtled towards a general direction but in some way, I feel like I'm being guided through a path towards the fulfilment of my destiny.

Was reading a blog post by Scott Adams (Dilbert's creator) about free will, suggesting that there was no such thing. It got me thinking. Economists always place people as creatures driven by incentives. An Anthony Robbins book (I forget which one) also espoused the idea that people are motivated by (the avoidance of) pain and (the seeking of) pleasure.

Maybe it's because I grew up in an environment where I was relatively sheltered and herded along. One quote comes to mind from my days as a recruit in NS. "Don't think. The Army doesn't pay you to think."

Don't get me wrong. I'm quite happy with my life at the moment. But I've just been giving some thought to how I want to live the rest of my life. Sort of like stopping the car and checking the map.

Or maybe it's my christian foundational belief that God has a plan for me. Although in some way, that conflicts with an individualistic spirit that suggests that I can be whatever I want to be.

Anyway, I'll write more about this when it comes to mind. In the meantime, it's been an eventful day so far.
1) A contact who was happy with my work wants me to work on something for him. I like it when things work out like that - No CV needed, just word-of-mouth.
2) Managed to reach an old friend whom I haven't spoken to for at least 2 years. Hopefully I'll get to meet up with him soon but just contacting him again brings back memories of interesting days of old.
3) Heard some big news about something that's been troubling someone for a while. On one hand, I'm glad things are moving on. On the other hand, I can understand the pain that comes with letting it go.

Back on the conveyor belt...